Life

Wednesday, October 14, 2009
6:46 AM

sacrifices are always required for the pursue of greater wants.

gotta continue making the sacrifice that i stopped

Music.Dance.Love.Life

Life

Saturday, October 10, 2009
3:50 AM

im just gonna rant on this random thought that spurred in my mind.

Life when unknown, and known to be in blight.

We are all here living day by day.
carrying out each and everyone's activities.
in an all repeating cyclic pattern that we humans, animals, ghosts and whatever there might be, simply adhere to strictly.
and i don't know if you realised it yet.
have have thought of it this way.
but...

WHY!??!
i've always been asking myself questions on life.
be it in good or bad times.
i realise that there are questions answered in faith.
i realise that there are answers questioned by science.
i realise that the science that creates us logically withstands faith many times,
yet the human mind, heart and soul simply overpowers science with faith many times too.

before, i questioned the existence of life.
i question the big question of creation and existence.

i questioned the very conscience of our mind.

for why do we see things and call things the way they are?
for example, why are 'things' called 'things'?

why do we speak languages, and how can we classify what is a language or not, when a language is but just a word to define the form of communication we use, which is again, NOT very defined at all.


i question existence. i question purpose.
i asked the sky, 'why am i here?'
the answer?


..........



yeah. expectedly unsatisfying.

so i thought to myself again.

are we here just as a phase to another reign of another sub-race that will take over?

are we here just to die by another global destruction?

or.. are we here just to create the substance called 'plastic' cause the Earth 'just felt like it'?

BUT then again. some answers just CAN'T be found.
hence, i brushed these thoughts aside, kept them till i find some clues on answering them, and continued living this cycle called LIFE.


and then it struck to me.

WHY DO WE LIVE LIFE?!!?
is it because we are happy that we live life?
is it because of responsibilities that we continue life, be it how positive or negative it might be?
what is being happy or sad anyways? emotions have become such a muddled state that it lacks the definition as a population, but more of individuality
then again, its but just perception of mind, i'll not touch on this.

i now question human morals.
human rights.
first off, what 'rights' do we have to even 'live'?
the Earth would be in a jolly good state without the mess we're creating.
and funny enough, with all known facts about the danger we create for nature AND OURSELVES, we still do not care, and continue living a 'standard life'.

that is, still putting in the bunch of crap into the atmosphere, water and land.


Another point is,
we all live our lives as if we have a purpose in life.
have anyone thought, 'im living life just because im alive'?
why not twist the sentence to... ' im dead just because im dead and... oops. i cant be alive again. oh wait, i'd probably die anyways'
if u know your future was unknown, would you venture into it?
WELL KNOWING that it has both ups and downs?
how about growing up into the future only to realise that you'd probably live a not so satisfactory lifestyle... in the dumps perhaps?

why would you not take your own life into your own hands and kill youself?
we are all made of cells and powered by electrical impulses.
with so many humans, one less mass of carbon-based lifeform switched off from the lack of electrical impulses coming from the brain doesn't really matter much to me.
and of course, we ALL would die someday, its just a matter of how and when.
yet theres still so many humans on this Earth.


and now, i question myself.
i do not know what my future is.
whether is it, in technicality, HAPPY or SAD.
whether is it socially satisfactory.
hell, i have no freakin' clue of whats to come in my life.
and yet, I am still living it with no clue of whats to come.

to those who know me, ya'll would say,
'wad about dance? don't u live to dance?'
i'd say,' i dance to live'
cos i wasn't created to dance.
but dancing sure keeps me slightly more satisfied than before.
but i STILL cant see myself dancing for a living in the far off future.
so, its still question of why am i living my life!
with so many years to come, things are sure gonna come down hard.
but i just don't know what they are...


THEN again... as the famous saying goes.
"Life is full of surprises!!"
hell yeah. surprises i don't wana know.
whats the point of living with surprises when you don't know the end?!




OK i've written a jolly good amount of mind-crap to allow myself to sleep in peace.
its been a while since i had such a rant on my thoughts.

last time i did it was...
mid last year...
thats long...


TO anyone who reads, i do not expect comments.
but hey, do feel free to leave a tag to flame my 50%-flawed argument.
lol, so much for modern mathematical precision.

Music.Dance.Love.Life

Life

Wednesday, September 9, 2009
3:02 AM

hey yeah.

just to update this blog thats been neglected quite badly...

exams are over and done with, marking the half way mark of my poly life...

and the start of holidays!!!

time for dance dance baby!!!
and of course more time with my dearest too(:


to make full use of my time this period,
feel like taking up some musical skills too by myself.
hmm... wonder how'd that will turn out.

Music.Dance.Love.Life

Life

Monday, August 24, 2009
4:40 AM

meddle less in external affiars...

instead sought the wisdom within for power and knowledge.

a mental note to self...



on a lighter and heavier note,

EXAMS ARE HERE...

yea its that time of the half-year..

the bright side is 1.5months of pure freedom with new kicks and clothes to rock in.

and more sleep!!!

Music.Dance.Love.Life

Life

Saturday, July 18, 2009
3:58 AM

its been a long time since anything came from or reached to this place called the bottom of my heart.

i feel empty.

Music.Dance.Love.Life

Life

Wednesday, July 8, 2009
5:17 AM

humble the mind.
Silence the noise.
clear your thoughts.
concentrate.
Focus.
Empty all the irrelavance.
for silence breeds all needed to grow.
to mature.
To be better.
To be sensible.
To be responsible.
Think before the words spill.
You shape yourself.

Peace

Music.Dance.Love.Life

Life

Monday, June 22, 2009
3:19 AM

yeah just to update.
been too busy with dance and all
have not studied nor did any work these holidays so far.

feel like im part of something yet not part of it..

but ya, least i hang out with my crew and all, feel i belong somewhere abit more.
other than that,

still loving that oh-so-cute-and-beautiful girl of mine(:
always around for me.

and of course,
my dance to accompany me.
finally managed to change the mindset.
for those who don't know, the mind is much harder to mould than the sculptured body.
for one who achieved a mind that is needed, the mould for the body follows suit.



lastly, my bro got some Kaos pads and MIDI pads.
woot, looking forward to creating some stuff with those toys.

Music.Dance.Love.Life